So it happened our little man started big school and wait for it I survived! Well survived at school drop off and our see you later farewell’s and then I pulled up back at home in the garage and let it rip…. After I had a good cry I was feeling good. It’s so much easier when they are very excited and comfortable to let your hand go. So now I just need to work on not rolling up to school pick up 20min early each day. And we have successfully nailed week one of packed lunches. So little behind on the blog as I have been busy getting solar panels installed and ended up with a headache the past 3 days, not fun and a great way to ruin your weekend. So after picking the little man up Friday I asked him if he wanted to go somewhere special for tea, at first he said he just needed to have a rest and then it went from pancakes to Maccas which was fine as the hour drive had 3 little kids fast asleep and when they woke up they were re fuelled to tackle tea and a play in the park. That little cat nap sleep on the way meant there was going to be a noisy drive home with mum’s headache starting. So now I’m ready to tackle a decent nights sleep and get ready to smash out another week of school and kinda for my girl.
So I have had a headache the last few days and somehow managed to twinge my back playing outside with the kids so decided to head to my usual massage parlour for my usual hour massage, my usual therapist was away so had someone else who does traditional Thai massage…. OMG that was an experience. So my massage was mainly done with someone on top of me and my goodness I don’t know how they can massage with their knees, elbows, legs and ouchy… are you ok mam? “Yep no worries” which was a lie I was hurting like a bitch at times but figured no pain no game. After my massage I felt awesome and what ever he did worked. Headed to find hubby and kids and I got a very long look that it was already time for home… no lunch just tired children who had just been spoilt with icecream and parks and all they wanted to do was sleep! Arghhh so our day out ended up short and off home we headed with a quiet sleeping car…. bliss.
So for my son the last few days and wknd ahead with be focusing on him as he starts his new schooling life… my feelings aside my focus shall solely be on him to ensure he is confident, excited and ready to smash it. All good except for the other parts which include “healthy” snacks and lunches which are so hard especially when you running last and you throw in packet of tiny teddies, nope we are a wrapper free and snack free school. Yes this is a brilliant outcome except when you know your going to fail this from time to time. So scrolling through facebook feeds about getting ready for school and lunch ideas and then you jump on Instagram and see all those awesome and ridiculously organised mums who have been posting their kids homemade roll ups, muesli bars, muffins ohh you name it! So I figured get out the Tupperware and snap lid containers out for the lunch packs and unwrap all the muesli bars, pop corn and rice cakes… insert “brilliant” who would possibly go through his lunch box with a magnify glass and determine it was from a packet? No barcodes here. Off course I will have cook up days but you have to get yourself in the right headspace and go full steam ahead for me to pull it off. Ohhh I just might sit back and wonder for 5 seconds if maybe we should hire a nanny 1 day a week just to cook snacks and healthy food ideas… I’m an outdoors kinda person and a main meal chef and avoid the tedious time-consuming area of cooking… best I snap outta that sooner rather than later.
So this week has been rather a lost week, holidays are almost over and I’ve literally ran out of ideas at home to entertain the kids, this week while temperatures are hot it’s all indoor play. Puzzles, drawings, hide and seek, movies and finally when it cools in the afternoon a play outside with the sprinklers and water slide. No, I don’t want holidays to be over but in a way I need some routine and structure back in my life. My kids are growing so quick and I find myself pinching myself and asking when did they get so darn big. I find myself a little lost in the world probably because I’m stuck in holiday wind down. Longing for some me time, some time not hearing the constant nagging or those dreaded “I’m hungry” words or simply not having to think about what’s for lunch or dinner or who’s bum needs to be wiped next. It’s funny when such routine and structure disappears for a few months can completely throw you off course. I somehow find myself with so much thinking time, the first half of holidays are filled with adventure, mini holidays and day trips, trips to the swimming pool and jam packed days and yep then comes that wind down when my mind doesn’t switch off.
I always found exercise a great way to escape and for an hour I’m lost in another world. Exercise is one of those things for me when I have a time and place or schedule it’s easy, you add it into your week and stick to it but when your out of cycle on holidays all seems distant. So today I thought I will have a shower and get dressed in my exercise gear and dust off my runners….. then a toddler melt down and teething clingy baby quickly put that idea to halt…. Maybe I will have more luck next week. So for the remainder of the week it shall be washing new School uniforms, cooking and getting organised for our first year at Primary School and another year at Pre School.
So we all get a little overwhelmed from our day to day run around. For me it’s running around after 3 very active kids, school drop offs, kinda drop offs and then pick ups, breakfast, lunch, dinner and then we press the repeat button, some would say that’s doesn’t sound like a fun or exciting life but its really how you look at it, I certainly wouldn’t roll the dice for a change at any time! After years it starts to get a little exhausting for the average mum/dad. So every mum or dad out there needs a little support sometimes or in my case its getting it off my chest and into the wide open world through my blog or meeting my friends for a coffee and letting the kids loose in the park (win/win)
Everyone’s situation is so different, we have working mums, working dad’s, stay at home mums and stay at home dad’s so its so important to have that one person in your life wether it be a partner, friend, cousin, sibling or simply your parents who can lend a helping hand or simply notice when you need a good chat and some support. Life’s to short to struggle away… what’s the point at some stage it’s going to boil out of you so why not let it simmer out more regularly.
I always wonder how men go getting their feelings out there? Let face it most men are horrible communicators when it comes to getting feelings out their, clearly some communicate in their own ‘blokes’ way at the pub over a few beers, cricket practice, football, soccer etc… but I always worry about the silent guys, the ones who look perfect from the outside but underneath that hairy chest they are struggling… If only we had a magic eye to see through inside and see what’s going on.